Are you hiring?

Well so the story goes... its been such a roller coaster. You know from earlier posts that I've been laid off. The company says they want me to stay, they will put me in a club, blah blah blah. Well now that "budget cuts" have been handed down by the new owners... my future isnt so sure now. Now the EVP says he cant mandate a club take me like he said he would back in December. That he knew before Christmas that it was going to be that way... when did he tell me? This past Monday. Ive not been seriously looking outside the company up to this point... grrr.

Ok! so now I've had one interview with a manager... wasnt all warm and fuzzy, in fact it was rather odd how it was left... as if he really wasnt interested in hiring me, he was just going through the motions because he felt obligated to talk to me. So then... I also set up a meeting with another manager last week for today at lunch... he emails me (not calls me mind you) to tell me never mind. He's got thinking to do about these new budgets and wont know for a few weeks whether they will hire anyone at all... (keeping in mind it took him a week and a half or more to answer 2 phone calls and an email)

So now... I have a meeting with the regional either tomorrow or Friday (he said he would be talking to those two managers before we meet) to talk about options from his point of view. In the mean time... Ive met with my long time mentor and he has passed along my resume to two fantastic lady's who maybe can point me in the right direction for a new job. Ive also been in touch with two other companies somewhat similiar to ours about any openings they may have.

Im begining to go through nervous spells, today I woke up sick at my stomach, Im not sleeping well at all (understandable I'd say) and people keep telling me, "it will be alright" but then they have jobs!

Yes I have 12 + weeks of severence but then that means no medical insurance (I can do cobra for $400 a month) or go on Kenny's insurance at 300+ a month so thats not SOOOO bad.

I know that everything happens for a reason. Maybe Im supposed to leave this company to go learn something new and maybe in the years to come, I can come back with a different perspective and maybe even a little new knowledge in the process.

As many of my friends know, Im always optomistic but in this case I cant let that keep me from looking for the job that is right for me, its not going to come to me this time Im betting, I think Im going to have to go out and find it. SOOOO if any of you know of any jobs out there... please let me know. I have about 3 1/2 months of severence and vacation time after the 23rd to find SOMETHING.

On the bright side... Derek wants to go out for the High School football team as a Field Goal kicker... gogogogo Derek... never give up on a dream until you know for sure thats all it will ever be.